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Attack
could come from anywhere. Rush from gorse, blackened by night, crouching
at the valley’s rim. Sweep across open grass, coarse and parched.
Swarm in changing shapes from a dense smudge of trees daubed across
the east. Or fall from clouds gathered up like an armful of sheets
waiting for the half-moon’s wash. At the edge, a steep drop.
The dusty rubbled track tightens its arms around the waist of the
hill. The moonlit stretch is empty. Beyond, the valley. A deep dark
pit of nothing. The tower watches. The tower holds her.
There’s
another door. She doesn’t remember it. Arched, so low she
has to bend her head. Inside, a glow from a small lantern. She picks
it up from the rough ledge, holds it in front of her. More steps.
Narrow, they lead deep down, turn a corner. A black place she can’t
quite see. She feels the way, lantern for light. Icy cold, damp
walls, low ceiling. She doesn’t count the steps. Her back
and legs ache for rest. Further down it’s colder still. The
only sound, her teeth. The steps end. The space above her head opens
up. She holds the lantern higher. It’s a small round chamber.
The end of the line. Tiny cream candles flicker in crevices along
the walls. The floor’s covered in soft earth and pine needles.
It’s warm, delicious, a sleeping room, smelling of Xmas.
On
her left, a small oak table and a chair with a brown leather seat.
She walks over, soft fine earth dusting her bare toes. She sits
in the chair and sets the lantern on the table. Her body eases,
soothed by a sensation of sliding into a deep warm bath. The table
top is rough and splintery. As she strokes her fingers over it,
a writing book appears. Blood red, pure vellum. She bends her head
over the cover, closes her eyes and smells it. The lantern burns
brighter. She lays her palm on the book. Her fingers curl round
a heavy fountain pen. Mottled dark blue, a shiny gold nib. She opens
the book and touches the pen on the page. Words begin. She writes
and writes, turns page after page until her fingers are stiff with
pain. She’s no idea what she’s said. Only that she had
to do it. She lays down the warm pen, rests her head on her arms
and closes her heavy eyelids. There is no sound, no breath. No earth,
no fear. She is heavy, safe, sinking.
A
hand gently strokes her hair. Tingles the top of her head to the
nape of her neck. She keeps very still. A voice whispers it’s
time to leave. Slowly, she gets up from the chair, picks up the
lantern and reaches down for her book. It’s gone. Pen too.
The air turns colder, the ground harder. Her feet take her out of
the chamber.She
lifts the lantern above her head and scrapes her hand on the ceiling.
Turning back, there are no candles, no table, no chair. A blackness.
The steps lead her up. I don’t want to go, she says, I can’t
go. She knows she has no choice. She heaves her legs up step after
step, tears on her lips. She doesn’t look forward, doesn’t
look back, only her sandals on stone. At the top the small door
stands open. She squeezes through and stands for a minute, looks
around her. Her cold fingers curl and uncurl, aching for the pen.
The flame in the lantern blows out. She puts it on the ground. In
front of her, the main tower door. Behind her, a bare stone wall.
The lantern, gone.
She
steps out of the tower. Sweat trickles down her back. She screws
up her eyes against the sun. People have picnics on tartan rugs.
Kites swoop and dip, show off across a clear blue sky. Children
run around on the grass, called back as they get too close to the
edge. She looks back at the tower, its heavy door, its turrets.
The tower, watchful. The downhill path ahead of her. She passes
a crow perched on a wire mesh bin. It jabs its beak at something.
A piece of pure vellum. The words say The End.
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